I will never stop learning. Every day I find out that I was wrong once again, and that there is a new perspective that I had not yet considered. They say this is normal for us early 20 somethings, to be constantly changing our minds about life and what makes the world turn.
It's a nice excuse to lean back on, that it's normal for this stage of life to be as unstable thoughtfully as a teenager at puberty, cause boy, is it exhausting.
I love to learn and to get better at things I suck at. And I love to hear other peoples life experiences and insights. I always seem to pull something new from what they say regarding something I had heard a million times before. Or learn from watching how the "pros" do it to better my technique.
The more I learn, the more I become aware of time. I only have so many years on this earth and there are so many things I want to learn about. I want to know all there is about cooking, painting, sculpting, needlecraft, quilting, music, organizing, economics, mathematics, theology, science, medicine, law, cosmetology, dermatology, psychology, politics, the stock market, upholstery, woodworking, engineering, auto mechanics, mass manufacturing, how to run a company, systematization, child development, botany, construction, interior design.... and the list goes on. I want to know it all. But there is not enough time for me to be a chef, a lawyer, a mother, a doctor, a CEO, a mechanic and an artist all in the same lifetime. It's sad, but I am still driven to at least try to know how. I am grateful that in heaven I will have unlimited time to learn and the best teacher ever.
I read the dictionary for fun, my favorite books that I own are The Professional Chef and The Family Medical Guide, I suck at long division so I do it on my free time to get better, my house is full of projects that I have made because I can't decide which hobby I like best so I do them all, I love watching infomercials for fun, I'm always thinking and strategizing how to get better at things. It takes 20 min for my brain to shut off at night because I'm always trying to figure things out before I fall asleep.
Life is so complex, and the more I learn, the smaller I feel, and the greater my God. The universe is huge and knowledge is virtually limitless. I want to soak it all in. But for now I still feel like I am only just now learning to breathe. And so we begin. Inhale........
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
Jennifer the Weakling :)
So, today has been a great day. And this has been a great week. Amongst all the chaos in my life right now, God is being glorified, and this my dears, makes me overflowed with joy.
God keeps putting a verse in my head and heart that makes me smile every time. Its like He is telling me himself over and over the exact thing I need to hear. When I am weak, good grief God looks so much stronger than I had ever thought he could have been before. It makes life so much more wonderful with this new perspective.
I can't help but marvel at how wonderful God is when things are in an uproar.
Its like a beautiful refreshing oasis in the middle of a hot, sticky, dry, dead, desert. Like a sunny tropical island protected inside a bubble from a massive hurricane. Like a breath of fresh air.
He is so far removed from all of the grossness of this world. its outrageously beautiful.
David wrote a ton about this in the Psalms and I think I am beginning to understand why and how he can say "Glory be to God!" in the middle of some really sucky stuff. It's because God is the polar opposite of any of the crap this world might try to throw at you, even if it is God's plan for you to go through hardships, oh my goodness, he is always there to confide in when it seems too hard. And when you come to Him, its like going from a place where lightning strikes and thunder roars to a place where all you hear is the breeze and birds chirping.
He is the ultimate encourager too. I find it flattering when he said in the Bible that He would never put us through anything that He didn't think we could handle, and he gives me some really tough stuff to deal with. That's a huge compliment. I mean seriously, it like the day that your parents hand you the keys to the car, times a million. That confidence that someone else believes that you can do it not only feels good, but makes you believe you can do it too.
I have felt a mountain of blessing over the past few months, even though these have been some of the hardest to go through, I can say without a doubt, Oh Lord, my God, how wonderful, beautiful, and glorious You are.
God keeps putting a verse in my head and heart that makes me smile every time. Its like He is telling me himself over and over the exact thing I need to hear. When I am weak, good grief God looks so much stronger than I had ever thought he could have been before. It makes life so much more wonderful with this new perspective.
2 Corinthians 12:5-10
New International Version (NIV)
5 I will boast about a man like that, but I will not boast about myself, except about my weaknesses. 6 Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say, 7 or because of these surpassingly great revelations. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
I can't help but marvel at how wonderful God is when things are in an uproar.
Its like a beautiful refreshing oasis in the middle of a hot, sticky, dry, dead, desert. Like a sunny tropical island protected inside a bubble from a massive hurricane. Like a breath of fresh air.
He is so far removed from all of the grossness of this world. its outrageously beautiful.
David wrote a ton about this in the Psalms and I think I am beginning to understand why and how he can say "Glory be to God!" in the middle of some really sucky stuff. It's because God is the polar opposite of any of the crap this world might try to throw at you, even if it is God's plan for you to go through hardships, oh my goodness, he is always there to confide in when it seems too hard. And when you come to Him, its like going from a place where lightning strikes and thunder roars to a place where all you hear is the breeze and birds chirping.
He is the ultimate encourager too. I find it flattering when he said in the Bible that He would never put us through anything that He didn't think we could handle, and he gives me some really tough stuff to deal with. That's a huge compliment. I mean seriously, it like the day that your parents hand you the keys to the car, times a million. That confidence that someone else believes that you can do it not only feels good, but makes you believe you can do it too.
I have felt a mountain of blessing over the past few months, even though these have been some of the hardest to go through, I can say without a doubt, Oh Lord, my God, how wonderful, beautiful, and glorious You are.
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